Am I Really an Entrepreneur? Can I handle the uncertainty? Am I enjoying it?
Starting a company is like walking a tightrope, where the thrill of uncertainty and full autonomy balance with the fear of failing. Nine months ago, I took that leap with Unblock. It felt like a marriage, or starting a family, as I joined forces with my partners, Jurriaan and Nelia - familiar faces, yet a new dynamic as we united around our shared passion for organizational design and new ways of working.
But passion isn't always enough. When it comes to decision-making, I'm now on the other side of the table, sometimes finding it more difficult but also more powerful to explore different perspectives and balance that with making safe-to-try decisions.
Like any organization, we've had our moments where we talked more than we acted, getting stuck in our own dynamics. But I'm proud that we've managed to change that. We started bold experiments with our operating rhythm to prioritize deep work, and set clear work agreements and boundaries. The results are showing.
The entrepreneurial journey has led me to question myself: Am I really an entrepreneur? The first 90 days were tough, as I craved stability and certainty. I had more free time but was hesitant to take breaks and relax. Over time, however, I gradually embraced the uncertainty, and the initial fear and anxiety started to fade.
Working on exciting new projects, having a clear strategy and dedicated operating rhythm, and learning from eating our own "dogfood" have all been immensely helpful. Now, I can honestly say that I'm starting to enjoy the journey. The uncertainty has transformed into an opportunity for growth and exploration.
Starting a company together is a rollercoaster ride - scary, exciting, and full of unexpected twists and turns. But as I reflect on our progress, I realize that it's all part of the journey. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
Thanks, Nelia Booden and Jurriaan Kamer, for being on this ride together. 🎢🙏🚀